nazihah na

hakuna matata

2011-12-13T22:32:00.000+08:00

dear diary,

i cant even describe how heart-broken i am to certain somebody. but, its ok. its fine.

working? how i sees it.

2011-12-11T23:16:00.001+08:00

hi! its been a while right?

alhamdulillah. i'm working now. before this i complained so much about my work, but now, my complain pays.
now i know why they didnt give me any engineering based work for my first 3 months at work.
perhaps they were afraid if i might get culture shocked! but, i must admit that i'm already in shocked.

ERI
what the hell is this? its an abbreviation for....
..
.
i forgot.

non the less, working here makes me remember how good it use to be having a LOT of girlfriends.
but then, after a series of unfortunate event, i realise that somehow i'm losing my focus.

working is not all about having fun!
its about commitment, seriousness, problem solving, giving relevant ideas, producing great outcome and money to spend in the first week of the month. haha.

eid fitr

2011-09-05T21:21:00.000+08:00

alhamdulillah. it's already raya. hehe. better late than never right? so, happy eidul fitr to all muslimin and muslimah.

as for today, there are nothing much to say but i just tought that i should write something in my blog. hehe. i'll be working tomorrow. and alhamdulillah somebody got a job now! yeay! happy. so happy.

better stop now. want to watch korean drama. bye2!

road to adultry

2011-08-28T00:09:00.001+08:00

alhamdulillah. its already 27th day we fast. unfortunately this is the first time i feel sad about leaving ramadhan. after all the tazkirah i have heard, sometimes i say to myself. why before this i didnt bother about making a lot and ask a lot. my loss. i admit.

i hope, not only this month, but also next month and forward we will always get to polished up things that we left behind. if you dont get what i mean, its ok. as long as i understand when i read this in the future.

my mom still complain about me working outside of seremban. i know what is she worrying about. first she said about the crime that's increasing these days. and then, she said about me having to leave my kids until late night because of coming home late from work. although, being married is not my utmost priority now, i too, have dream about having a family for myself.

it is just that, whether i work in seremban or not, i still will experience coming home late from work. my dad experience it too, and so does others. this is the norm of life.having to chose this career line in the first place, i am actually aware of the work load that i have to commit with. it is just that, i wouldnt be able to do it without any support and du'a.

i pray too. i du'a too. insyaAllah. but, still i believe i need more. sometimes, it's nice to have a really supportive and sporting dad. he's the one who said that if i want to move on forward and to have the chance to improve myself, it is better for me to work in KL. he said, if i work in seremban, i will become like those whom i've seen before. i dont know how to describe the way they are, but you can see that they too hoping for a lot more than what they do everyday.

heish. lot of babbling now. boring right? okay.

eid

2011-08-25T15:02:00.001+08:00

today's activity. baking.

what i love about baking? i dont know. i just love the activity itself. as for today, i made oat cookies. i improvised my aunt's recipe a bit. just to cut down the amount and increase its crunchiness. i hope so the cookies turns out good.

well, i know, this is boring stuff. i start work on 6 sept. i dont know whether i have anymore time to write or to play games on facebook now. or even watch my favourite drama at my favourite channel. hmm. well, if you want to have a taste of what i baked, you are welcome to come to my house in seremban.

oh.

and please come after 3rd of raya perhaps. happy eidul fitr people!!

2 things

2011-08-24T23:34:00.000+08:00

alhamdulillah. i got another one offer. but then, i have to decide which one i want. this is so hard.

my mom wants me to work in seremban. i'm not sure about my dad. me? of'course in KL. but then, if they worry too much, i probably have to make some sacrifice.

yeehaaa!!

2011-08-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

ok. maybe i'm being over reacted about my previous interview in my previous post. it turns out..

I GET THE JOB!!

alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah.

i just dont believe it. the person who called me informing the news was laughing at my respons. hmm. so now i need to prepare myself to work. this is not working at the office all day long. its rough, tough, hot and too hot and also so hot. if you understand the weather nowadays, you get what i mean. hehe.

ayoyo!

2011-08-23T00:38:00.001+08:00

hi dears!!

well, i'm ~~a bit~~ very disappointed with myself today. why? i think i screw up the final interview that i had earlier today. i've been asked what do you know about this company, and i hardly answer. and then he told me just for future references that i should make my homework about the company so that i can impressed them and show that how much i really want to work with them.

you tell me. it was a big! super duper! slap oh the face!

ahh. never mind. i guess i have to work in this boring city of seremban.

lots of love for a friend

2011-08-20T00:57:00.000+08:00

what?!! postponed again?!!

hmmm. i think managers and ceo's of big companies are really busy. my friend's interview keep being postponed to another date everytime he is so ready to do the interview. interview need a lot of preparation, especially if you want the job so much. well, in other words, if you want the job so much, just wait for the interview despite how many times it is been postpone. haha.

ok. have a grip izyan!

nothing much to say today. i just felt sorry for my friend for having a lot of hardship for this week. it's ok dear! dont give up on love, dont give up on yourself! i thought we planned on having fun together, travelling, partying and all the good stuff that you really enjoy with girlfriends. hehe. well, i cant wait for that moment.

yes. i admit that there will be time where we want to have someone to rely on to. a company that will listen to us, love as as much as we do. but, all good things needs a very longgggg and a lots of waiting and patience before we get to grab it for ourselves. as long as we believe in our faith in our do'a, and work on something for it, insyaAllah, god will grant it for us. just have faith on it.

after all, you are hot! beautiful! and you are all good by yourself, for the time being lah kan. haha. you have so much to do, so many friends to have fun with, so many other places to go, so many people yet to meet. so, chill. hehe.

blank feeling is only temporary. i will pray for your happiness okay!

funniest alive

2011-08-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

one day, my mom made a joke
during berbuka..

mom: angah tahu maksud nama nadhirah?
me: yang gelojoh. orang lain puasa juga. tak adalah sampai macam tu.
adik: yang pelahap

laughing..

angah: eh. tak la!!

silent..

me: hmm..habis tu apa maksud nadhirah tu?
mak : (while eating) entah. mak dah lupa.

....laughing out loud....

after terawih, we're heading back to the car. i saw mom was looking for my dad. i was like calling her and ask what was she looking for.

well, she was looking for my dad and she didn't even notice that he was already in the car.

dad: saya pun pelik jugak. apa yang awak pandang-pandang tadi.

...laughing..

one day, two jokes from my mom.

it's A-OK

2011-08-18T00:17:00.001+08:00

i am so upset. but i just cant tell. huhu. maybe that thing is not for me. so, whatever.
*taking a deep breath

tomorrow i have another interview at lafarge. well, i'm not keeping my hopes up high. lafarge is a big company, and if they really provide accomodation for the graduate training program, perhaps i'll join. i think. because, although josbstreet or jobsDB or whatever job finding network there are to actually makes you find jobs easy, it is not as easy as you might think it is. hmm.

well. let pray that those who really really wants this lafarge get the job and that whatever that they do, that is the best route that God have actually provide for them. because i once heard before,

we usually dont want something that we get, and wanting something that we didnt get and please know that Allah know what is best for you for He who knows everything

sorry if what i wrote dosent seem right. but it actually what i told myself everyday everytime. it's ok la yan. it's ok. it trully is ok.

p/s: i might want to rojak up my blog. there are time where i prefer to write in english but there are some words that is hard to potrey in english. hmm.

p/ss: just for myself. it's ok LAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!

fasting month in muar

2011-08-17T00:50:00.000+08:00

when i was in form 4 & 5, i made a decision that made a whole difference in my life. i decided to go to a boarding school in muar. althought it was a little bit too hard at first, but i managed.

as years before, at this very same fasting month. although it has been a while now, but memory still remains. this may be an embarrassing story, but let keep the names a secret. hehe.

all of us students are compulsory to attend tarawih every night, after all the eating, during tarawih, a friend of mine, her stomach would make some grumbling sound so loud that i though she was still hungry or something. haha. it was funny though back then.

and, there this once. my friend have some serious stomach pain and that she decided to go to the hostel. well, she asked me to accompany her, so i did. since i was so scared to wait for her outside, i wait for her inside the toilet. god knows what happen next. but, all i can say it was an experience that i never wish to face again.

**laughing out really really loud

after all the depression i went through when i was there, there were still things that made me go through my day. my ly.tr.iz gang, my dormate, all the hot-guys (not so hot now) and of course letter i received every week by a very dear friend of mine. i really appreciate that.

well, although that school turns out to for me not the very best school, but it made me who i am now. so, i thank you!

mathematics of cooking

2011-08-16T16:02:00.002+08:00

waiting is the very last thing i want to do right now. and i really need to go and buy myself a mobile reload but i'm so lazy to go. i wanted to sleep, but then, i dont have the reason to sleep up until asar since i dont feel that tired like yesterday.

i did a lot of new things last week, and Alhamdulillah, i get to buy the scarf that i wanted so much. after months and months searching for it. thank you to ayunar. they have a lot of varieties and colours. what i love most is going shopping with less people in it.

a friend of mine said that in baking, they have a concept where there will be a certain ratio of how much flour you need to put with certain amount of butter or sugar. well, i did notice that. so after making the butter dough for my nestum cookies yesterday, i started to re-organised the ratio of the ingredients because the recipe isn't giving me any best of result.

for the chocolate dough, even though the recipe is in gm, i change it into cups since i dont have the scale. it's ok to do that because from my obeservation, as long as the ratio is right, you'll eventually will get the same result.

it turns ut my nestum cookies melts inside mouth the moment it comes in. well, i would say it is a good result since my picky dad eats it and commented it like that. so..

HOORAY!!!

lesson #15

2011-08-14T22:59:00.000+08:00

first of all, thank you ipai for your advice. although i read it a little too late, but, if i get the second call, i will look through my fyp for sure. hehe.

about the interview, it was not actually an interview really. all we did was some excel graph, writing a formal letter in english and malay, translation from malay to english, IQ test and a little bit of mathematics test. the IQ test was a bit too hard. there was a lot of question regarding number and i kept thinking about taking the same old PTS exam like we did in standard 3.haha.

well. hope i get the 2nd call. huhu.

for today's lesson #15

be a slave to Allah. not to Ramadhan

understand what it meant?
well, at first it was a bit confusing to me. what does it means actually? well, after further explanation, it means that, all the ibadah that we do during ramadhan, need to be continuously been done not only this month, but other month as well.

let us be firm with our heart and what ever we're doing. if not for someone else's, let it be for ourselves. insyaAllah.

lesson # 12

2011-08-12T01:11:00.001+08:00

ya Allah. i'm so nervous about the coming interview. i dont know what to study. if it is an interview i probably can guess what the question will be like, but the HR said it is an assessment before they give us the actual interview. gosh. i dont really understand though.

well, many many thanxk you(ss) to my bestfriend for your wonderful advice. i already wrote it in my book so let us all hope that we gain much towards this beautiful ramadhan.

i dont know why recently i feel contented. it is something like happy but at peace i think. i dont know how to describe it. you will feel happy if somebody treat you for berbuka at some hotel. that is happy. this feeling i have is something like so calmly happy. ahh. i dont know.

my printer is giving me a hard time and it stats making me talking nonsense.

ok. lesson#12

another dear sir said that ramadhan have three what should i say, phase(?)

rahmah
forgiveness
lailatul-qadr

now is in the middle period of ramadhan. we should maximize the use of what is left for us now. yes. and dear sir did talk about something funny though. in a negeri sembilan dialect.

lailatul-qadr is not the night that we should find. because it is hard to look at it when you are trying to seek for it. the night was given for us to increase our ibadah not to look over the night to see the plants and trees bowing to god

well. he had a point there dosent he. my intention is for me to not forget what i heard. nothing more.
sharing is caring anyway right?

p/s: pray for my interview pleaseeee :)

lesson #10

2011-08-10T00:45:00.001+08:00

what i heard today really makes me think a lot
thank you for the lovely talk dear sir

we heard all the good things about ramadhan. we acknowledge that this month, ramadhan is the month where you get to seek for rahmah, gain and collect pahala from all your ibadah.

the problem is we knew, but we didnt actually care - me

yes. that is true.

we always want a lot of things in life, even if it exceeds our capability or even it is way beyond imagination and even with hardwork we probably manage to get about only 50-60% of it

what my dear sir says was, why didnt we ask?
yes. it got me think for a while. why we didnt ask Him when all along we knew that He makes all these things happen around us.

dear sir says,

do we really have to be too ego to ask things from Him?

after all. we already know. we knew. all along we knew.
hmmm. it got me think a lot actually. and all along the main problem is, what to ask and whether it is appropriate to even ask for it? should i even bother think whether appropriate or not? or whether all this questioning should even come in the first place?

haih. i dont know. how am i going to answer?
i'm not that good in this matter. hehe.

day 1

2011-08-01T17:26:00.000+08:00

ahhh. the first day of ramadhan
my friend's story really made my day. haha. kids nowadays
they do know how to express themselves well

thanx to my mokie, i have an issue to share
after all that 4 years i've been in upm, i never ever really feel i'm close with them
well, i'm close with a few of them, but not all
if compared to my mcmf gang

in a short word, i would rather have my convocation with them than my course mate
and i want to come on their graduation day to celebrate it with them
that's the friendship that i would offer because they give me more than i could possibly imagine in just 6 weeks

i believe that we were born with love not only from our parents, but grandparents and also our uncles and aunts who'd heard that we are finally been born after 9 months of waiting
after all such love that we had, we learn to share it with others
sharing the love with our friends, siblings and perhaps someone special
all this love rotates and recycle

what i want to talk about have nothing to do with love anyway
it is just that, sometimes when you thought that someone is your friend in need, it turns out that she is not
and you sometimes think that, when you help other and they may help you back
not necessarily actually
i think people will only help if they finds gain/s in them, yes, then they'll help

p/s: it's ok. it's ok.

yes! here he come!

2011-07-31T13:38:00.000+08:00

source

alhamdulillah, tomorrow is the start of ramadhan

wishing myself and everybody a blessed and insyaAllah a happy ramadhan

after all, it is the month of ibadah

some issues happened and it made me realize even we are at the top of the world

without blessing from our parents, without du'a

everything wouldnt be well as we hope it would

letting go one thing dosent means that we are losing everything right?

good things come and go, but in the end, it's our family who stays

we are convincing this into our hearts and mind

yesterday is tough but we'll manage

may this month, ramadhan

be our best month in year 2011

cheer up!

new

2011-07-30T01:30:00.000+08:00

finally i am done with the old template.
WELCOME! new look

quoted from the legend..

wait for it..

...dary barney stinson

new is always better

**respect

social status

2011-07-25T13:24:00.000+08:00

social media, is not the place where you get to tell EVERYBODY how upset you are to that certain someone
you may think like " hey! it's my status so i can do what ever i want "
you are wrong baby
not all you can share and tell, and if you really need somebody to express it all
go to your boyfriend, or girlfriend, or best friend

i really hate emotional status cursing + whistle blowing about everything and what she did wrong or what so ever unnecessary stuff
please cut it out because if you think you want to embarrassed her, you are wrong
you only embarrassed yourself because it shows how stupid and unprofessional you are

stop

facebook

2011-07-24T00:32:00.001+08:00

last friday ( i think )
i was listening to fly.fm and they were discussing on things that you hate the most at facebook
there is this one thing that i have in mind and somebody finally said it. it was funny though

" people liking their own status or whatever that they post "

i have a friend who is like this
every status that he wrote he will 'like'
if you send him things like ' causes ' or ' be a fan ' sort of stuff he join it eventhough he doesnt know what the hell is it

since it was our final year at upm, some of us decided to make our civil final year group in facebook
i was wondering why isn't he in the group
bunge said, he's exceed the group limit, that's why

i never seen someone who's seems so obsessed with facebook so much..haha.

p/s: WTF does not mean what the fuck. it actually means welcome to facebook.

hahhaha. layan je la kan?

it's ok

2011-07-22T00:39:00.000+08:00

my biology teacher once said, we are born champion
why is that?
among millions and millions of sperm, only the champion gets into the ovum - that is us
that's why

what makes us limiting our credibility?
criticism!!

hey! not everybody can accept criticism at first, but we learn through time
say to yourself, it is A-OK to try up things that you like
despite that your friend might give you and opinion like " why are you liking this gay fashion " or " you dont have to wear eyeliner that thick, your ok when you have none "

i like it, i do it
you like, so you do it

just make sure it dosent gives anybody any hardship or something because that is BOO-K.O

time

2011-07-22T00:27:00.000+08:00

they say time is money, time is gold, time is precious and what so ever time is

for me

time is how efficient are you in ~~spend~~ managing them.

happy thinking!! :)

what happen today?

2011-07-20T19:14:00.000+08:00

it is not the kind of interview that i thought it was
you have to make some kind of project paper within 2 hours given
title : how to implement process control according to ISO 9001:2008. Room for improvement?

my god.
it was a good day though.

Reason for Tomorrow

2011-07-19T21:37:00.000+08:00

i dont feel like writing anything now, so i just make blogspot like tumblr. is that ok?

Part 1 : MCMF upm 1

2011-07-14T12:36:00.000+08:00

one fine morning

acap: yan! hows the performance for the party?

yan: OMG!! sorry!! I totally forgot to post it on facebook

grab the water on the table an drink (about 2-3 gulp)

(ahhhh. refreshing)

.
.
.

wait a minute..

isnt this arif's bottle

AAAAAAAAA....

p/s: missing my upm 1 friend. huu~~

confusing of confusion

2011-07-03T23:44:00.000+08:00

hey peeps
it's hard to believe that 6 weeks of training is finally come to an end
meet up with 32 great people whom except each and everybody for the way they are

i'd like to share more
but it is one of the sweetest memory that's so hard to share and yet so memorable

been loitering around for the past few days
and dr. farah already gave me work to do (although it is un-official)
can somebody give me one answer
should i work? or should i study?

just give me one answer without differentiating both
i am so confused right now

help me.
:-(

my career my future

2011-06-30T00:07:00.000+08:00

a new post after so long. hehe.
i've been joining some course on business communication and customer service skills
it is good and it's fun
not to mention met a lot of crazy new friend
here's a pic of us

MCMF UPM 1

please dont you hate me, because i'm beautiful

please dont you hate me because i'm wonderful

please dont you hate me, because i'm colourful

o oh oh

i know you love me, because i'm powerful

i know you love me, because i'm successful

i know you love me, because i'm not a fool

o oh oh

you and i

we are UPM 1

you and i

we all will get things done

you and i

we all are having fun

we'll never regret

celebration

2011-05-08T00:47:00.000+08:00

saturday was mother's day
sunday is adik's day!!
hahaha.

happy happy birthday ciktem!

oh. and happy birthday to whoever who's celebrating!!

quicky!

2011-05-01T21:27:00.000+08:00

recent.

i stop follow this one person.
reason? he posts too much. i mean A LOT!
and most is about ~~himself~~ how good he is which actually bore me to death.

i already sent my project paper for bound.
alhamdulillah. i managed to finish it.
i dont know why before this i felt like it was so hard and now to find out that how time flies so fast regarding the project.

i am still waiting for replies.
oh please take me.
please reply please!

now that i know how strict she is. i'm kind off scared to be her student.
pheww! i finally said it. haha.

i miss my cik tem.
i think he's getting chubby-er by day.
or should i say
cik tem's chubby-er is proportional with time?
lols

i'm fed up with some people who always think for her/him self
i mean why is that happening actually?
did you live here by yourself or should i add on a few more eyes for you to see?
people should learn how to live in a community, or if you dont want to, might as well just get lost!

okie. thats all.
thank you!

now i remember what is used to be

2011-04-27T07:32:00.000+08:00

it was really tiring to study for about 2 hours (plus minus) without rest

so the first thing that really kills the boredom?

no need to ask.

its facebook of course.

duhh!

i was scrolling through my notification and some hot issues happening around boring upm

then from mr. nor azman

" bila start test? "

" esok kul 11 "

" god luck "

" ayah! akk apply ni and ni "

" stop chatting and study "

(-_-"

i was just starting though.

**sigh

time and money

2011-04-25T16:30:00.000+08:00

there are times i realize, that people dont have time for your itsy-bitsy problem that actually can be resolves by yourself

and that also goes to me. I dont have time okay.

but to think back, we kept saying things like

" i'm sorry. i am so busy. i dont have time "
" i dont have money. i need to save up to survive until the semester end "

although we say we dont have time, the real thing is that, we DO have time it is just that we didnt manage it properly like wasting it for sleeping or watching family outing again and again.

although we say that we dont have money, the real thing is that we KEPT spending it for unnecessary things like buying pilot shaker pencils to complete our collection or buy fury slippers to wear in our room.

bunge's advice

dont kept saying that you dont have money when you actually have it
because you'll going to end up with none

dont kept saying that you dont have time when you actually have a bundle but your wasting it
because time flies faster than you know it

p/s: all this goes to me. so please dont think that the world revolves around you.

the truth

2011-04-20T01:32:00.000+08:00

about 19th April 2011
oh before that, happy birthday to my ex-adik katil, adilah. (the end)

actually i planned to go home yesterday in the morning after bunge finished his presentation.
but then, since he is so excited that all his waiting and burdened had finally over, he asked me for a date.
so what the hell

but after that
he told me to go back and have a sleep while waiting for 4pm
so i did have a nap and waking up to find that it is already 5.36 pm
i was so stressed up now that things didnt go according as planned

i was like EEEEEEEEEEE!!!! AAAAAAAAAAA!!!
' kenapa tak kejut saya??!! '
' hujan pukul 4 tu '
' yeke??? '

then bell came to my room, so i asked

' hujan pukul berapa bell? '
' dalam pukul 5 macam tu la '

AAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!
cakap je la tak nak sy balik hari ni. haaaaaaaaaaaaaa..

i'm late and i'm lazy

2011-04-19T17:41:00.000+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
i need to go home today but unfortunately its already 5.45 pm and i can imagine the crowdedness inside the ktm which i hate so much

eeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
i thought i said i want to go back home at 4 pm.

after 22 years

2011-04-19T00:42:00.000+08:00

for about 23 years living in this temporary world (alhamdulillah)

i managed to learn a lot despite that i falls a lot but then helps comes a lot too which makes me more than grateful enough to all my besties and babies

millions of lemons of thank yous' i've given to those who wishes me HB, happy birthday, selamat hari jadi, hepi burfday (is there?) and etc
despite that i have hundreds of people wishing me joy, it is your thought of me that matters and i dont want to ask more than that

so far i learned that

being under is hard but being at the top is harder as others may look up to you as an idol
and if you fail to maintain it, you'll be the same as a nobody to a somebody like before

as much as respect is important in a relationship, i found that the reasons why i listen to every word and every advices that my friends and babies told me is because i love them unconditionally and whether you hurt me and torn into pieces, i will still love you as much

i unrestricted myself to befriend with those who is older than me, they somehow are much cooler than i think they would. so dont underestimate people no more izyan!

i am so pissed of with yahoo mail.

ok. this is an advertistment.

i learned that everybody have a motive. but the difference is that whether it is ultimately selfish or not. i have my own motive of doing things, but as far as i am concerned, it is not just for my gain, and i did not give people a hard time.

and now i am so lazy to type.

so thank you all!!

last project

2011-04-17T19:53:00.000+08:00

finally i've finished writing my project report. although i think that it is not as good as others..
well..
at least i've finished
and i really really hope that the examiner will like it although there is not much research i did regarding my project title..

pray for me

;)

how on earth?!

2011-04-10T21:38:00.000+08:00

what i'm about to tell is a bit embarrassing.
ok. i admit. TOO embarrassing!!!!

i was just finished editting the bill of quantity for my capstone project
open my facebook up a bit
trying so o hard not to play any of the facebook games and i want to chat with bunge
i miss him so much despite that i just see him about an hour plus ago

so i wrote,

" rindu awak sayang "

i close back the chat box, while i was waiting..

SHIT!!!
that is not Kaka'suat Bunge (his name in facebook)
ITS HAZWAN HAMZAH!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
that is ultimately embarrassing!!
if he is my friend its ok.
but he is bunge's friend.

ya Allah. please do not let me meet him for like until i finished.
tak jadi sambung belajar la macam ni. -_-"

can you?

2011-04-09T22:53:00.000+08:00

this was given by my roomate. haha.
i dont know where did she got this from, but you just have to agree right?
one laugh a day.
not bad for a start.

today

2011-03-26T01:25:00.000+08:00

today was a really big day for me

need not to say much but perhaps i was so happy to be able to went to a place that is so high of class

that i even forgot how far away the sky are from the lowest level of the ground

it is not a place where i should be and certainly not the place where i should put myself at ease

to be with a community that is far beyond imagination

maybe perhaps one day i will come back

without forgetting what am i made from

a typical family that is come from the sub-urbs

been teaches to live modestly

simplified:

my mood are a bit happy, but mostly sad just because somebody took my bottle away from me

p/s:

she never had won the best employee award of the month for several years since the board was there and she's old

taman botani

2011-03-15T12:30:00.000+08:00

its been a while right?hehe.

sorry.

i was so busy remodelling my project from a six lane bridge to a four lane bridge.so i need to start from stretch.

well, recently we went to taman botani, putrajaya for the first time. haha.

it was great. the weather was superbly nice and we totally love the small dam that they have there.

nothing much to say because we went there since we are too bored with the "dating-at-mall-couple" so we try up and start a new leaf. it was fun, and maybe you guys should go too.

i told you the weather was great

i really like the basket. it is so convenient.

hopelessly honest moment

2011-02-26T00:46:00.000+08:00

since my facial wash is going to finish soon. and so..

a: sayang, ingat tak pencuci muka yang warna hijau tuh?

b: hmmm

a: saya dah tak pakai dah, saya pakai yang kita salah ingat scrub tu.

b: haaaaa. tuh la saya tengok muka awk ok dah.

a: haa. tuh la kan?

b: kalo tak nmpak ade biji2.

...silent.....

hah? dulu tanya tak komen banyak pun. sekali dia cakap macam tu daaaa..

(-_-"

job hunting

2011-02-23T03:01:00.000+08:00

i dont know whether this is good news or what

one of my lecture, dr.thamer wanted me and bunge send our resume to this company saying that he recommended us
the problem is
a lot of my document left at home
i need to print out another resume because last time i did not put any lecturer references and my friend said it is important to add that
and
i hate walking around all day long wearing baju kurung (is this acceptable?)

desktop-therapy

2011-02-23T02:33:00.000+08:00

now that february is going to end

and we are all in welcoming the march-going-to-be-super-duper-busy mood

most of us are so stressed up that we are not able to think straight let along doing something straight (but im still straight though. hehe)

i hate to stress up myself by reminding me about my final year project

and thanx to david, i manage to pick up my excitement that had been..

emmmm

i would say all over the places?hehe

and back to our topic, my new desktop background

i didnt remember where did i download this

its nice to see blue and green and enjoy it before i go colourblind

really quick update

2011-02-22T08:43:00.000+08:00

last saturday, bunge and i joined the ex-dip gang to port dickson and melaka. it was a so fun and tiring day.
i will update later k.
plus i'm thinking whether i want to put my jong kook picture or not.

hugs and kisses ;)

steel vs still

2011-02-12T20:50:00.001+08:00

source

i am so very lazy nowadays with myself and all my washed clothes on my bed that had been left for like a week.

while others are busy preparing for tests, i am busy burning dvd's for my korean drama collection

things arent so smooth for the time being

and

i kept on remembering things that hurts me so much (which i wanted to forget so badly but i just cant)

there are one of my lecture said that my fyp dosent have any research values so it is becoming their argument and that they are hoping that i would be discussing with my supervisor just to show that my fyp are on a firm foundation

despite all the sad and hurtful things that had happened

i manage to laugh a lot too

it happen during when bell and i were meeting with dr.raizal last friday
i was asking about something that is related to bridge (note that my bridge is made out of concrete)
and so dr. raizal answered my question but started with the word 'still' and with a long pause..

unfortunately, different meaning was being interpreted by my brain, so i asked him
' DR, DR maksudkan steel besi ke, or steel still?'

then everybody laugh

things like this do happen you know
because we engineering people deals with concrete and reinforcement steel and even steel bridge
or should i make it simple, we kinda have the civil engineering language

haha. pity my DR. he cant even explain well because he was laughing so much.

qalbi's wedding

2011-02-10T18:13:00.001+08:00

better a bit too late than never right?hehe.

credits: syiqah dear

first. congratulations!!!!! to my friend Qalbi for her wedding. WOW! (that is all there is to say to describe how shocked i am now that you are a married woman. haha)
congratulation again dear. hope you will have a blessed life with your new family and more to come.
i'm so happy for you.

apart from that, it was a blast holiday since i get to meet some of my matrix gang. it has been 4 years since we've met. and thank to all of you, i laugh like hell.
it was worth it though. so worth it.

and not to forget about the delicious wedding cake.
so sorry that we ate it at only left you with the bottom storey of the cake. haha.
another one is that, we did not drop that glass plate at your wedding, it was someone else.
but we did ate the watermelon balls. it was windy and lepak-king while eating is divine.

amat ipai's tag

2011-02-08T20:18:00.000+08:00

i wanted to post out something, but i didnt have the idea
so i started viewing my own blog just to see if there is anything new at my chatbox (there is)
i scroll down to see which of my friends posted something new (there is)

but

why is it that under ahmad naufal's name didnt have any title of his post today?

why??

?????

-_-" (why did i even open his blog?)

i've been tagged

Apa benda penting dalam hidup korang?
buat baik dengan semua orang. sebab aku percaya sangat-sangat yang kita akan dibalas baik

Benda terakhir yang korang beli gune duit korang?
nasi lauk ayam bakar

Di manakah tempat korang akan langsungkan perkahwinan korang dan apakah temanya nanti?
em?tak sukenye soalan kahwin.
depan rumah kot? ke dewan yang ok?
tema all white tapi tak nak ianya nampak fake-ly indah

Adakah korang sedang bercinta sekarang?
HAHAHAHAHA.

Berapa lama korang akan mencintai kekasih korang?
semua orang nak cinta sampai ke syurga kan? tapi..

Novel/buku/majalah terakhir dibeli?
novel tu ape? (dah lama sangat tak beli)

Apakah nama penuh korang?
sebenarnya nama penuh izyan nazihah bt nor azman.
tapi bell suka panggil ijyan najijah (hahahhahah)

Antara mak dan ayah, mana korang lebih mesra?
susah nak cakap. sama je.

Namakan orang yang betul² korang nak jumpa dalam hidup korang?
anak-anak aku

Adakah korang basuh baju korang sendiri?
penah je. tapi ikut mood.
tahap malas aku adalah sampai bila di mana aku sanggup basuh sendiri baju aku sebab malas nak turun tingkat 2 basuh pakai mesin.

Di manakah tempat yang betul2 korang nak pergi?
korea dan mekah

Beritahu 3 benda tentang orang yang beri tag?
aku cakap benda2 negatif la. ngahahahahahah (gelak kejam)
dia suka bawak kereta, ikut jalan lama. pekebende ko ni?
...
(dekat 15 minit aku fikir weh)
...
-_- " (give up!)

Lima benda yang paling disayangi dalam hidup anda?
koleksi buku harry potter
koleksi movie harry potter
diari planner harry potter and the chamber of secrets
hardisk
farizul asuat itu adalah benda aku.

Lagu yang paling anda suka dan selalu dengar?
my precious - jang geun suk

during our date

2011-01-27T23:51:00.000+08:00

while we were eating at alabondo (alamanda) food court..

in front of our table

a cute boy

counting his fingers

' satu

dua

tiga

empat

lima

enam

tujuh

lapan

sembilan

sepuluh"

.
.
.
.

" aik?! sepuluh je?? "

reasons you need to get a good night sleep #1

2011-01-25T16:56:00.000+08:00

WARNING!!
since i didnt sleep last night so it may had cost me some mental ~~disabilities~~ ~~disorder~~ (lembap?) that had made the next event occur.

today.
because of thaipusam celebration, we needed to replace that thursday foundation design class to this thursday
as for that, my lecturer Ir.Azlan was asking how many factor of safety that we want to put just in case if he forgets the replacement class
it was a slow respond from us
but finally i say 'we sms you sir!'

-------------------and the most embarrassing moment happen------------------

'how you want to sms?' (i dont know the fact that he never gave his phone number to any of his student even his fyp student)
'oh OK! nice try izyan. nice try'

the whole class burst into laughter!!
and i was like ' NO sir!! No!! I didnt mean that way!'

i need to sleep early tonight. just in case if i will go and ask for Prof. Abang's phone number pulak tomorrow.

congratulations!

2011-01-24T12:45:00.000+08:00

credits : bunge

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

to yop and yong (bunge's brother and sister in law)

for their new born second child

such a healthy baby you are dear

hoping you grow up to be a soleh son

p/s: he havent got a name yet. but i'll update as soon as i know

how i met with the thai's

2011-01-22T20:48:00.001+08:00

yesterday, i ~~did~~ had to do a presentation about my trip to taiwan for the IDEERS(Introducing and Demonstrating Earthquake Engineering Research in Schools) competition in front of delicacy from KMUTT (King Mongkut's University of Technologu Thonburi) of Thailand.

the session started with presentation of introduction of the KMUTT and some ice breaking session with the thailand student. it was really funny because there is this one guy, who adores david beckham so much. in his biodata slide, he puts two beckham pictures, except that the other picture he superimposed his face onto beckham picture which made the whole auditorium laugh. he even said that his face is like beckham (i can assure he is non of that)

well
the good part is
before we start our presentation, we had been devided into groups of students (groups are according to the mobility group) and been given 2-3 thai students to get to know with.

and the best part is
one of them is so o o o o cute!!
guess who?

credits: sin wei

p/s: at first i was so piss off with the presentation as i am so busy now. not that i need another extra work. but, to Allah's will it turns out to be a memorable night. the thai's are so friendly!

my 3rd week of study

2011-01-21T02:04:00.000+08:00

i am so super duper busy this week

first, i need to finished up a report on structural form - shear wall which is usually been used as a lift core.
luckily it is a group work although it is kind of hard to find about construction method of the structure itself.

then, i need to finished up power point presentation about my trip to taiwan last semester.
i need to present about ntust (national taiwan university of science and technology) in front of representative from some thailand university

and the most biggest thing that made my life miserable
my design project with prof. abang
well he kept saying 'the beauty of this course is..' but then, later he will say something that will make us like 'huh?!! ~~WTH?~~ NOOOOO!
as for example, next week is our proposal presentation
and he says 'the beauty of this course is that no one know who present's first except me'
that by means of he will randomly called groups and each of the group members must be prepared for some killing question on the project.
we have to assume that he is some Arabian sheikh with a LOT of money and will be sponsoring our project
pray that he will like our sports centre please!
i dont want to change it into anything else since i had spent all day doing the model

my model. its kind of messy. but its the best i can do though

p/s: our sport centre will be powered by solar. but then again, it is about the cost right? but as you know, you have to sacrifice something in order to gain something. that's why it is called opportunity cost.

boring.need some idea pronto!

2011-01-17T19:34:00.000+08:00

i was running through my friend's post trying to find the posts that he tagged me
i was feeling rather boring and somehow excited to do all the tagged post, but somehow i dont know why i stopped.haha.

dear friend.
i know out of 5, i may have did the tagged post for just once.
i liked being tagged, but i just dont like to do all those tagged stuff.haha.
sorry haa.

p/s: i am so damn boring. why havent any idea came?i really need to do about this structural form thing ok. and one thing, i kept watching hyun bin and ~~wishes he noticed me just once~~ nothing.

source

but then later bunge mesti cakap 'eeee!! diorang berak tak basuh la!'

capstone design project

2011-01-17T11:59:00.000+08:00

want to know what makes civil engineering final year student in upm go crazy and superbly busy?
mind the final year project, its a must.

but final year design project????????
hectic!

final year design project is a capstone design course (prof.abang, 2011)
by means of, we will be given any kind of project to chose, and to initiate the project from scratch.
from A to Z.
from an empty land to a land that is full of services and buildings.
from a more sleeping and gaming time, to a world without sleep.

not we need to construct the project in real life or what.
but to just experience what it is like to work in a design office, except that we only work on wednesday from 8 am to 5 pm.
and our office is just at BK7 (just some ordinary classroom)

well, my group's project is to design a sports centre
problem is that, we are having problem on getting most of the architectural drawing and that there is another group who will be doing community centre but more or less it is kind off the same with what is in our group.
we want to add some swimming pool and maybe jogging track in the garden concept.
~~and also~~ or some decorative pavilion like this:

source

0_0

cool and steady wins the game

2011-01-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

how cool can you be when you are in trouble?
dont know right? so do i.

about a few days ago, bell asked me, are you in tense?
well, the truth is, i dont really know when i am stressed out
it is just then, when people keep telling me that they are stressed, it somehow became a trend to be stress at that particular stress time

bunge knew if i am stressed out
that is when i laugh too much, or when i seem to have adrenalin rush (some kind of like that la)
i even cry sometime for no reason at all

but most of the time, i dont think much of my problem
because there will be some time soon, that the problem will eventually go away
by means of it will finally solved itself
so why bother thinking about it all the time right?

and for that
most of my friend said i'm cool

fell again

2011-01-16T01:20:00.000+08:00

source

tell me

how can you not be 'heels over head' for this hunk?

ahhhhhh~~ drooling

oh. for those who may have not know, this is hyun bin.

i would give him ten thumbs up if i have ten thumbs for his latest drama secret garden.

although his character is like the typical korean hero character, i must say, his appearance is heart throbbing.

izyan nazihah is going eco

2011-01-13T10:47:00.000+08:00

source

have you ever heard of eco tupperware?
it is the same like any other tupperware bottle except that the bottle opening is the twist-type opening (which makes it easier to be put inside our bag since the tendency to spill are lesser)
why eco?
it is economical and you know how using the normal plastic water bottle can cause cancer
it is also said to be using the good grade plastic ( i dont know much about this though but some chemical student used to come to me once promoting the use of tupperware bottle instead of plastic and polystrene)

actually, i am so interested in the 500ml eco bottle
i dont drink water that much, and to bring the 1L bottle here and there everywhere i go is kinda like pain in the ass
but the main reason is, i just like the design and colour that i feel like i want to collect them
thas all

so, should i buy 1 or what?
their colour are so adorable right??

a reminder for future izyan nazihah

2011-01-10T08:01:00.000+08:00

IZYAN NAZIHAH!!!

dont you dare wear that 'easy-to-wear' hijab (tudung sarung or what so ever that have to go with it)
even when you are married and when you have kids
you are going to look 20 years older and you know it yourself it look hideous on you. (but seriously, some looks very pretty)

three dimensional

2011-01-05T17:44:00.001+08:00

source

you can say that i'm waaaaaaaayyyyy back from the ice age
you can say that maybe perhaps worst, i am the cave man who lives in the cave in the middle of serdang (haha)

but

believe it or not
today is my first time watching 3D movie

if you wish to laugh until you (almost) wet your pants, you might want to consider watching this movie because it is super hillarious. i think my laugh may have annoy some in the theatre.

all in all, bunge dosent like it very much because he's having a headache for having to wear the 3D spec that they gave. but we're both agree that the story is really funny and that the most important thing is to be able to be yourself and please please please dare to take the risk of what your heart desire because you do not want to regret it later for not taking the risk.

i had to watch it double ( my spec + 3D spec)

kind of uncomfortable because i dont have a really big nose to support both though

maybe it is going to be our first and last 3D movie to watch

p/s : they say 4D is more exciting. if water splashes you can feel it splashes at your face. waaaaaa.

my very first new last semester

2011-01-04T00:50:00.000+08:00

WOW!
a whole new, and last semester. finally and how quick time passes by right?
lets aim to finish this very last semester with flying colour for a start aint?

well, today i ate at the green mosque near futsal court at taman sri serdang i think.
then, my all time crush en.salihuddin came along with dr.ratna and dr.halim eating at the same place
i dont know how to actually say hi given the circumstances that i was with bunge and that we were eating when they came
so i just wave happily at him when he was washing his hand

then of course, continue eating when suddenly en.salihuddin came and say

" oi. baru buka sem ko terus dating ke"

haaaaaa~~ (drooling)

happy new year!

2011-01-01T04:14:00.000+08:00

happy happy new year everybody!!
seeing everyone have listed all their intentions and hopess

as for me. i dont know what to wish for, and what to hope for. for me, as life goes through all their highs and lows i may find my self at some point

sitting silently in front of my laptop playing all the facebook games i can play or laughing hysterically while watching korean dramas

or maybe
lying on my bed wishing everyday is not a mess and that all my lecturer would not give me a very complicated assignment to think of

or maybe
looking out at the window of my room at the 6th floor wishing my parents would come and visit me because as much as i miss them, i still dont have the strength to leave him here alone wishing that if i was not at home, maybe we will have a great time laughing and teasing each other all day long

or maybe
when april comes (final exam week) i will be praying non stop, regretting that i did not push myself up to the limit to struggle for my final semester

or maybe
i will just ponder and wonder why i did not do anything special for myself, or anything that will eventually change the way i am today, or why is she/he better than me? or what am i lacking off? or why hasn't she invite me to her engagement day? looking down as i am feeling down

just so at the end to find
everything that i wish for through every minutes and every second is up to me and of course blessing from Him
and that it will not be done by only hoping, dreaming, wanting, praying and sleeping (my major problem is this)
it all need to be done!
verb is do!

so do something la bi-atch!

by anonymous

2010-12-29T01:26:00.001+08:00

this was given to me by anonymous whom i dearly cherish with my heart. thank you dear. :)

Si ibu sering berkata...

”nak..kwan pak cik itu sering bercerita tentang kejayaan anak2nya pada ibu.semua anak2nya Berjaya ke menara gading.kini anak2nya sedangmnjawat jawatan2 yg baik."

"tapi kluarga kita..."

"abg2 kamu sering buat ibu menangis suatu ketika dahulu..

kini kerja sbg penjawat awam yang biasa saja darjatnya..kerja di kilang..dan hanya kamu yang berjaya ke menara gading...kamu buat la btol2...wlaupn ibu tak dapat lihat semasa hayat ibu...mngkin ibu akan mlihatnya dr alam yang 1 lagi”

Pada suatu ptg...pak cik yang suka bercerita tentang kejayaan anak2nya pergi rumah kluarga yang sederhana itu untuk mngambil barang yg dipnjamkan kpd keluarga tersebut.beliau dtg dgn salah seorang anaknya yg Berjaya..

ttpi...

ketika ingin pulang..keretanya didapati pancit...pak cik itu memanggil si ayah kluarga sederhana itu untuk membantunya menukar tayar yang kempis itu dengan tayar tambahan di dalam bonet keretanya.si ayah keluar dengan anaknya keluar untuk membantu pak cik itu.

pak cik dan anak lelakinya itu cuma mampu melihat kerana mereka langsung tidak tahu cara menukar tayar kereta.Pada masa yang sama...si ibu bertanya...”apakah kamu tdak tahu cara menukar tayar?..bagaimana kalau tayar kereta ini pecah?....siapa yang baikinya?”

pak cik itu mnjawab...”pnggil mekanik je la”..

Si anak keluarga sedehana berfikir didalam hati...” Ya ALLAH...bersyukurnya aku hidup di dalam kluarga ini.walaupun abg-abg ku tiada yang berjaya

tetapi

mereka sntiasa ada untuk membantu ibu bapa mereka walau apa cara sekalipun... dan mungkin anak2 pak cik itu Berjaya pada luarannya...tp bkan pda rohaninya”...walaupun ada anak yang hnya bekerja di kilang sekitar rumah mereka...ttp..anak itu la yg sntiasa ada ketika kecemasan...mnjaga ibu bapa ktika sakit...sesuatu yang x dpat di buat oleh anak2 yang berda di perantauan...

Dear Mr. Anonymous,

I know for some, success is the utmost important thing that matters. and now, how there are to many of us racing towards achievements, fame, money and fabulosity. i think the greatest achievement for a child, is to be able to serve our parents. through thick, or thin.

i'm so proud of you even if you're not

i've seen what you are and what you can do

i've seen what people may have not seen in you

harry potter wins #7

2010-12-27T04:02:00.001+08:00

note: at this point, i solemnly swear that i am seriously and pathetically cant wait for HP part 2

about a couple of days ago, i had the funniest dream ever.

i was at my grandmothers's house in raub, pahang. watching harry potter part 2 with my family when one of the member of the order came and tell me that the death eater were on their way to my grandmother's house.
i was in shocked. death eater is coming and i havent yet prayed for asar.
so i waited anxiously for the death eater while watching the movie in some kind of you tube video in a piece of paper.
as i waited, i heard that someone was coming, but it was my cousins.
then, i heard somebody is coming from the backdoor, but it was my uncles and aunts.

but then..

i remembered. harry potter went to hogwarts to find and destroy the remaining horcrux.
so i went out in hoping that i could apparate to hogwarts. but i couldn't apparate.
i guess it was my luck because some woman offered me a ride to hogwarts.
but before that, we arrived first at the woman's house which her toilet seems to be the same as my toilet.

knowing that i was going to face voldermort later, i decided to take my wudu' first. (for the sake that may god be with me in my journey)
the weird thing is, knowing that i myself is experiencing real life situation of the movie, i even checked the novel my self to find that there was also my name written there.

harry, ron, hermione and izyan

once upon a time in tioman

2010-12-23T04:59:00.001+08:00

source

when i was chatting with my mate that i knew from matrix, there are a few things been brought up throughout the conversation and made me remember my family's trip to tioman island

it was long ago and i think i was about 6-7 year old, or perhaps younger (i think younger because i can't seem to think rationally)

do you know every hotel would have this intermediate door that connects two room right?
well, when i was a kid, i seriously do not know what is the point of placing that door in between rooms
i can't opened it as i pleased
and when i opened the door, there was another door? (what the??)
i mean, for a kid, a door was meant to be opened and to be seen what is at the other side right?

well, since i can't see what is it at the other side of the door, so why don't i just knock the door until somebody next door opens it for me right?
so i knock the door, long and hard.
and sometimes with rhythm

then, i stopped

because some crazy lunatic was knocking angrily at our room
it was some english uncle wearing only his boxers, shouts angrily at my dad

although i am too young to understand english, but looking at my dad's face, he seems to not understand what is the man talking about but dad seems to understand that the man was upset about somebody from my room knocking and knocking non stop and that bothers him so much
only the word sorry flew out through dad's lips

well, lucky that i was too young to know that what i did disturbing other people's privacy
my dad did get angry with me but i'm a kid right? that is what kids normally do
find the answers to their curiosity

it was a funny memory
:)

p/s: i think he was german or something

long ago. i owned them.

2010-12-20T01:58:00.000+08:00

for a while, not long ago i thought i own the most adorable kittens in town

they accidentally came to my house or to be exact, my wardrobe

it was a weird evening to see the mother meowing all day long trying to say something to us but unfortunately we dont undestand at all

and when we opened the door, she would ran upstairs looking at my room

sitting there looking at something which i dont know what (its kinda creepy though)

i was wondering myself what is wrong with this cat

i did look inside my wardrobe, but there is no sign of her babies

but
late that night
i have a hunch to check my wardrobe properly because the cat's reaction is somehow doubtful
i mean, what the hell right?just have a check. no harm done or what so ever

and
i was shocked to see that there were not one, but four kittens inside there.haha
and they are so damn cute little fragile babies
we have them for about a week or two until they ran away to my neighbour's house next door
i dont know why

oh well
it is a good feeling to have a pet cat
and i regret that we havent got the chance to name them

food in taiwan

2010-12-19T00:02:00.002+08:00

i was going through my photos during my visit in taiwan, and i found this
the vegetarian food i had during our visit to NTUST (national taiwan university of science and technology)
of course in taiwan, their best university is the NTU (national taiwan university)
the university that we visited is some kind of like colaboration university with the ntu

it is such a beautiful university although it was kind of hot and tiring journey because the utm team and us had to go there ourselves by MRT
when i arrived at their gate, i saw a couple riding bike together
riding a bike together, the guy was handling the bike while his girlfriend was standing at the back
since it was raining softly, his girlfriend was holding the umbrella for him
awww.so sweet isn't it?

i must say, taiwanese boys and girls are super gorgeous

love at the prime of age

about the food
hmmm. i cant say that it is not delicious at all because i do love those long green thing (at the very left bottom of the lunch box) it tastes like celery
they do like tofu though, there are three servings made out of tofu, and i only ate the noodle like tofu
but, eating those rice with vegetables is i would say not the most exciting things ever

its a whole grain rice, it has barley, oat, ~~red bean~~ and lots (grain family)
i dont really enjoy plain taste food
but thank you ntust for the FREE meal

have you guys have a painting tips?

2010-12-18T18:29:00.000+08:00

how to paint wood actually?
of course i need a special paint to be used for wood
but why is the output is not as nice as it suppose to be?
now my door frame looked ugly, and dad say it looks black, unlike his (natural wood colour)

wait till you see my bedroom door
i would say it looked horrible
if the colour is not redwood, it will look horrific and that every time i see the door, i feel like i want to buy some white colour paint and paint the whole door and its frame again

ahhhhhhhhh!!
i was never good at painting my project before, and i am not good now

is it conjunctivitis?

2010-12-17T15:09:00.000+08:00

see those reddish line under my eye?
ahhh. my eye are burning. i cant sleep well and it always watery
it looks like i'm crying the whole time (ok. that's a bull. not actually crying, but watery)
it hurts the most during sujud. feels like my eye about to pop out from its socket
haha

well, they say dont complain if your having musibah
embrace it, and be thankful about it
be tough about it
maybe you have done something wrong somewhere that u haven't realize you're doing

sha la la

2010-12-17T04:19:00.000+08:00

Shalalala

while singing a song

Dreaming of you calling my name

Shalalala

I’ll be your woman

I’ll only look at you beautifully

shin min ah

my girlfriend is a nine-tailed fox

syukran

2010-12-16T03:32:00.002+08:00

i know it is not much. just as long i am still in the range i am more than grateful enough towards god
thank you Allah for listening to my prayer, my uttermost desire.
i couldnt say more at first for i am crying at the first sight of it

thank you to my lecturer too
i know i am not the brightest but believe me i tried all i can
although they may not remember me as much
their hardwork and efforts are all that im grateful for
and i will never forget that because believe or not, although the subjects may not teach me how to live the world, but it made me tougher
so i thank you

i do like ir.salahudin class so much, but it seems like i am not good at finance myself
and i regret i didnt do well for my prestressed concrete test for dr.raizal's class

all in all
Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah

may i know wt is d url 4 dis website? plz..

2010-12-14T00:39:00.001+08:00

http://www.formspring.me

Ask me anything

cik tem

2010-12-13T19:19:00.000+08:00

i'm not sure whether this is inappropriate

this is my baby brother, muhammad nafiz ihsan also known as cik tem.

why cik tem?

look at his soft and tender + chubby cheek that had been our family's place to kiss attack for the last 10+ years.haha.

everybody loves to kiss him even his brother

and he was and is spoilt by everyone

today is a big day for him. you know why?

let just say he is way past the pre-stage of maturity

and

do you know that the Koreans think that circumcision is a kind of plastic surgery?

what the heck??!

i love korea

haha

intuition

2010-12-12T01:05:00.000+08:00

source

how important is first impression to you?
for me it is almost everything that includes how in the future that very person would treat you later
it is kind of your instinct telling you whether that person is compatible enough for you to hang out with

i always trust my instinct but i rarely say what is it if my friends asked me
it just happens and my body will eventually move in a way my instinct says so
or like when you want to answer your objective test
they say your first choice of the answer came from angel and the later came from the devil
i think, it is also kind of a way god giving us answers to all our questions (whether you have asked or havent)

p/s: i never like this person before. and now, i have the concrete reason why.

smp upm

2010-12-10T01:16:00.002+08:00

shown above is the latest smp website for upm student

the things is

i cant login my account

how am i suppose to see my result then?

quite frustrated now really

and why is it that my structure analysis 3 dont have any marks yet?

ahhhhhhh. troublesome!

p/s: you can access to esmp on the 17th dec though. :)

happy birthday!!!

2010-12-09T01:31:00.003+08:00

credits: jurex (photographer) and jiha (camera)

my dearest mok2!!

happy happy birthday (this is what i often said to those at my fb)

i didnt wish you a happy birthday in your fb because there will be hundreds of your friends wishing happy birthday

and you wont be replying right away.hehe.

i know you want that caramel recipe so badly

but i wish to make it as my secret recipe. haha. pity you.

well,

have a blast 22nd birthday k, mokie!

love you so much!!

p/s: actually, his birthday is yesterday (8th Dec)

harry potter wins #6

2010-12-05T16:05:00.000+08:00

this is funny.

source

harry potter wins #5

2010-12-05T15:49:00.000+08:00

remember my post about harry potter wins #2
the picture that i put in my post was actually a superimposed picture of rupert and emma
actually it was not their picture
perhaps some fan-fix picture that fan makes to illustrate how ron and hermione will kiss in the movie. haha
well, this is the real picture

source

harry potter wins!! #4

2010-12-03T21:22:00.001+08:00

i watched harry potter and the deathly hallows for the second time with syiqa
its a shame to tell that i actually late for the movie for about 15 minutes last time i watched with my brother.
although there are not a lot that i missed, but still

source

i missed the part where hermione had to clean up her parents memories of her.
gosh. it is really a heartbreaking scene. but then, i didnt cry though. haha.
you can see from her face that it really breaks her heart to do so

more or less
since this is our second time watching the movie, it feels like time passes faster that from the last time. haha. maybe because we already watched the movie. huhu.

hey!
i want to recommend you watch repunzel: a tangled tail
yeah. i know i'm a bit too late for this

it is one of the latest disney princess collection ( do you still remember the little mermaid, sleeping beauty, cinderella. ahh. my favourites)
i watched the trailer and it is hillarious. i will not put any video in here. but you can always watch it at you tube or something. haha.

kissing scene

2010-12-03T01:04:00.001+08:00

for me

the most important part in a movie/drama is the kissing scene

why?haha

i had always waited for each kissing scene in a movie when i watched one along with my buddy syiqa

a movie is bad as bad as its kissing scene, not to mention if the actors do it without any passion (i dont mean erotically, but at least a kiss that is full with love and emotion)

haha. why do i even want to talk about this anyway.haha

ok.ok.

for an example, have you watched the notebook?

well, since they had been a part more about a year, although the hero did send to his Juliet 365 letters (a letter a day for a year) the heroin's mom never did gave the letter to her because she was afraid that they'll be back together. the girl is from a rich family whereas the guy came from a poor family. but when they were dating, they did have a dream to built this one house that is so damn old and leave there to old.

there is this part, after 365 days they haven't meet each other, under the heavy rain a beautiful scene. a great one i would say. after a year the girl denying her feelings for the hero, trying to forget him as hard as she might, and yet to see him again. that long lost love of hers.

you know? the longing that bursting. anger for not knowing that all this time his letters had been hidden from whom she believed so much. longing for the first love that she will never ever forget.

and all this is been described in the kissing scene.

a very romantic movie

p/s: the scene after kissing part is emm. actually rather erotic. but please dont misunderstood.

p/s: this is a silly entry really. haha. its kinda sad to think that when my ciktem grow up, i can never kiss his chubby cheek anymore. :(

happy december

2010-12-02T00:18:00.000+08:00

happy december everybody!!
december is a very i would say all in one month
i would be very happy since it is holiday and my mother is a housewife during school holiday
i can wake up late without any worries (except of course they say u'll gain 1 kg for every hour late)

unfortunately

it is the month where exam results will be out
depress depress and depress
apart from that
now i have to worry about my project which i should start practicing NOW
i mean seriously NOW!!

since two of my beloved dearies birthday is on december
somehow, i havent really found a suitable present to give to them
i know cinta wouldnt mind me giving him a smallest present i could think of
but
a present need to have some memorial value, epic value right?

see
that is why december is all in one

long ago

2010-11-29T23:38:00.002+08:00

i had been thinking long and hard.

about two and a half ++ year ago, someone asked me a question

a question that will never be forgotten

because

at that time, me myself dont know the truthful answer towards the question

why do you want to stop?

frankly, the perfect answer to the question is up to him whether or not to think bad of me, or otherwise

but as time goes by, i realize we have both been each other's second choice

and

there is nothing i hate more than being a second choice

more or less

i would tell the world it is all my fault

and i'll be so grateful if you say that it is my fault

my pillow

2010-11-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

i wanted to post about how much i love pillow. but then, since it was ages ago. ahhh. forget it.

but i love to have so many pillow on my bed.
pillow makes me feel safe. from nightmare.
i would do my very best just to make sure my bed is the most comfortable bed.
i took one of my mum's pillow.not that she's going to use it anyway. so its ok.
i cover it with a very nice purple sheet.

until

one day

i finally came back for my semester break

run upstairs

just to find

my brother, took the very pillow i love the most

dem!!

harry potter wins!! #3

2010-11-24T23:03:00.001+08:00

OMG!

i know. again??!! just bear with it k. please.

guess what? i watched it. (scream). I know. Although some may find it lack this and that, but most of them is as what i imagined it while reading.

and i know there are some who watches the movie just so because they heard of its excitement, but you should know, that its a lost. seeing without any knowledge or passion for it.(its your lost, so nvm that)

7 potters

my comments are that:

i really really love the actions

the thrill. running and hiding here and there

more and more bloods

love scene. harry's kissing scene. emm. i dont like it that much. its not because of jealousy

but i do love it when harry (as a friend) cheer hermione up.

ok.

the reason behind it:

they are finding the horcrux is in order to defeat the enemy. (you-know-who)

in horcrux lies the lord's pieces of soul. but then, he dosent know if one of his horcrux had been distroyed.

in the book, since they are hiding, they musn't said the dark lord's name because it had been tabood (i think it means jinx). because the death eaters knows that no one ever dared to mention dark lord's name except for them. this is why they had been caught by the death eaters. harry said 'voldermort'

deathly hallows symbol

as we know, the deathly hallows represent these three things, wand (elder wand), a stone (able to recall others from death) and the invisibility cloak. harry has the cloak. shocked knowing that he had one of the three legend things. haha. exciting isnt it?

but then, the snitch had already opened even before they were caught. but maybe the director had other plan.

i dont recall about this little piece of mirror.

but. emmm. i know what is it for. and the blue eyes he saw that makes him thinks its dumbledore.

there's a reason behind it.

well

cant wait for the next part.

:))

man i love

2010-11-23T21:09:00.000+08:00

when i was a kid, i do have these dream guy criteria that i want my so-called boyfriend to have

wear spectacles
tall
handsome (who refuses this right?haha)

but as i'm ~~getting older~~ (at my prime age), i realize that none of the criteria above possessed by all the guys that i had/have liked/like. well, none of the three appears to be owned together.
its either they are specky, specky+tall, handsome+specky or vise versa.

but for this all time favourite ~~guy~~ man i liked
lets do an itsy bitsy study now

i fell in love with him when i was 12 after i watch kuch kuch hota hai (legendary)

tall. handsome. wore spectacles in mohabbatein

sweet and adorable. i fell in love due to the scene when he was dancing in the rain with kajol

aaaaaaa.very romantic.

sissy but then still handsome.

this during my obsession in korean drama, my girl

i like that he is the ego like guy who denies his feeling towards the girl

he doesent know that he actually love that girl (this is typical in all korean drama)

but then, in the drama, i wouldnt say he is the best actor ever

he didnt know how to be emosional

hehe

i know most would love daniel instead of rupert

but i chose to love psychic more than the hero himself

messy hair, casual outfit, fit body

too smart brings the creep, too serious spoils the fun, too metro-sexual is gay

i love the messy hair look

it hard to own them to myself

i know

still, it is not a crime to love

hehe

they say that you'll not get what you want

it is what you need that Allah will give

im not saying that what i have is what i need

but i do think the reason i have him now because He knows that he is what i need (im praying so)

tall, handsome, specky

its what i want

but what i have now is

mohammad farizul asuat

5' 2" (short)

handsome (i think this can only be seen through my eyes)

he still have a very good eye-sight

he may not seem much, but he is more than much to me

harry potter wins!! #2

2010-11-22T21:07:00.000+08:00

thanks to my dear best friend syiqa
i feel like wanting to watch the movie NOW!!!
but then, heart
please be at you utmost patience to watch it on wednesday
please please please
may my heart be at peace

thanks for nothing honeyh

taken from here

i am really really looking forward for this scene

hehe.

Penang vs Harry Potter. Harry Potter wins!!!

2010-11-21T21:05:00.000+08:00

28th November 2010
Angah's birthday. But then, I'll be going to Penang.
Visiting the Penang 2nd bridge construction?interesting is it?
See first.

This coming wednesday.
probably going to watch harry potter and the deathly hallows I.
interesting?
i hope so.
money problem spoil the excitement.

:((

ohh. wait for meeeeeeeeeeee

obsession

2010-11-13T01:04:00.001+08:00

source

oh. they are so damn cute right?

this is the time when i am so obsessed with something by means of i might had, have and will be listening to their OST all the time and watch the drama each time during my breakfast, lunch, dinner, and my so called bedtime-story.

i did experienced this during my obsession with

kuch kuch hota hai

my girl

witch yu hee (this is just a three star drama, but i don't know why it catches my eye so much)

you're beautiful

and last but not least, the latest obsession

my girlfriend is a nine tailed fox

today

2010-11-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

alhamdulillah. finished three paper.though i am quite sad because i didnt get good carry marks
and that in the final, i keep having insufficient time problem.

then again, i think i can answer economy quite well
but we can never be too confident in ourselves right
not that i hoped too much

emmm. today.
nothing much
i just assumed that maybe he felt a little bit sad since i refused to go and have a date
not that i dont want to
its just that i need to finished up my fyp
and he's having design paper tomorrow and design I in the next day
he'll thank me one day
i hoped

im at a point where my brain is bocor

2010-11-07T10:51:00.000+08:00

i really really wanted to go out and hangout
its been ages
but then
not to mention financial paper on Monday and bridge engineering on Tuesday and then again economy on Wednesday makes my chair warm
enough to actually burn my fatty ass
but he's going back to ipoh on 16th
which is right after our last paper
and insisted that there will be raya haji
so he wanted to get back home as soon as possible
What the?!!!

this is during nazwa's open house

love the desserts!!

hurtful truth

2010-11-03T23:33:00.000+08:00

it hurts seeing your love ones being bullied, or if somebody treats them bad
it even more hurt to think that you yourself might have did the same thing
but
it hurts even even more to actually hear him complaining about what other's did to him
but then again maybe it really breaks you heart when he said to you that..

you hurt me as much as they hurt me
except that
you kill me completely

neo-mu cu a (really like)

2010-11-02T22:27:00.000+08:00

there is a saying says that a person you like will like when you said
'neo-mu neo-mu neo-mu neo-mu neo-mu neo-mu neo-mu cu-a'
means
'suka sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat'
or
'really really really really really really really really really really really like'

what are the odds right?
try it
perhaps it works
hehe

inner conflict

2010-10-31T19:08:00.000+08:00

knowing that there somebody who's been focusing on her fyp since raya.
WOW!!
why am i not like that?
after all, just click click and click
how hard could it be?

i havent finished my literature review yet
i should put more and more about grillage analysis
and ways to understand grillage analysis
i dont want to use finite element
even finite element's class is hard enough

moreover
wasting beautiful sunday is a very bad idea

communication

2010-10-31T01:28:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh. i dont know how to help myself anymore.hehe.
i want to be hardworking. please2!!
aiyoo.

emmmm. today there is something that made me wonder all day
how come, if you are so close with this somebody
you can just chat all day eventhough:
you met him during the day
he calls you almost 6-7 times a day
you eat with him at lunch and dinner
see him in every class you went
yet
you still have things to talk about

these things dosen't have to happen with you and your boyfriend
it also happens if you're bestfriend too
or perhaps roomate or housemate
no matter what ever topic you talked about
how many times you had talked about the same topic through and through
still
you still wants to talk all day long
hahaha
funny right?
still
its the happiest moment

the beauty of communication

life as it is

2010-10-28T18:42:00.000+08:00

there is no day 1 any more
it is just days and days and insyaAllah more and more beautiful days
thank you ya rabb for a day with ~~no worries~~ peace in mind and importantly heart

still

i do have lots and lots unfinished works
hoping as time passes by
works go 'done and bye-bye'
haha

still standing

2010-10-27T19:02:00.000+08:00

day 1.
well. its not bad at all. (i think)
been so busy for the past three days
never ever had i been so tired of all that has happened
please let the day past by with full of barakah
i need it a lot
alhamdulillah

consolable

2010-10-26T22:10:00.000+08:00

trying hardest to console
it's ok if i am here alone
i think i prepared more than enough for now
i am sorry if its me that you hate so much

one thing keeps me standing is that
if you believe in Him
you will never be disappointed
after all
all that i do now makes you sick

finished

2010-10-26T19:24:00.001+08:00

i resigned. finished.
no more me any more.
suddenly i wish like i am a piece of valueless soul flying here and there, now and then
no more me
no more myself
i would be more than happy if you want to say that you are right.
please, i'll be glad to.
and i would be very very happy if you think i'm wrong
no harm done

i'll just have to except thing the way they are
no question, no argument, and no opinion from me
please do what ever you please
i..
i quit!

thoughts

2010-10-23T23:31:00.000+08:00

what are the public perspective towards civil engineer?
since there are a lot to be build and lots and lots to be preserved
civil engineer may seem not contributing anything into preserving the nature, the environment

but then again
its hard to gain both things at once
but i do believe that we are able to get two things at once by doing it moderately
and not everything is perfect
therefore instead of blaming them for not being able to design or applying back to the basic
maybe you should be in their shoes and see how much further back they go applying things to the very basic need not just design but also basic human needs

im not trying to sell civil engineer or trying to exaggerate all the negative thinking that some people have towards civil engineer
it is just that
perhaps to most of us
construction work seems to be the faster way to achieve economic stability
and i do believe that leaders have been thinking through and forth whether or not we need it

as for example the design for pedestrian pathway at the university
need i to remind you
two is better than one
so, civil engineer, with the help of a creative architect
both are able to combine forces and create something that is functional and yet has a great aesthetic value
but then,
different people different opinions and ideas
they may have arguments along the way
but at the end, they'd meet the perfect solutions that best fit each other

the design of the pedestrian way need to be safe for the use of the pedestrian
Malaysia is kinda windy
therefore, we need to design the pathway so that the wind will not be able to lift up human weight
or else, instead of leave flying over here and there, we'll be seeing human floating here and there
haha
if you feel that the pathway is hot and that there is not even breeze flowing through
maybe the engineer design only to allow wind with a certain speed to pass
and that if you feel very hot while walking there
think about global warming
that a room with aircond still dosent feel so cool anymore
(ok about the air cond room, i think i might've been too hiperbola)

here are some info about wind speed

(source)

instead of accusing we didnt apply work back to basic because of my wrong way of misunderstood what you say
maybe we can join hands and feel what is it like to be in others shoes
or maybe you can start by saying "thank you for you contribution, but... "
its the matter of having a good relation with others
like what the phantom of the opera would say
" i am a good friend, but a bad enemy "
hahahahahhahahhaha (evil laugh)

realiti

2010-10-22T22:12:00.000+08:00

aku rasa Allah memang nak buka mata aku

tengok apa rumet lama rasa yang benda yang sama terjadi juga dekat kawan aku

aku takkan pernah faham, sebab aku tak pernah alami

biar sedaya upaya mana pun aku nak faham

memang susah

aku nampak

sedangkan yang dah lebih dua tahun pun masih tak boleh nak lupakan

kenapa masa dulu aku tak pernah nak nampak yang sebenarnya orang-orang ini tengah menghadapi saat-saat paling susah dalam hidup dia?

dan yang aku cakap senang je

'move on'

kau ingat senang ke nak move on yan?

kau boleh ke move on?

gerun

2010-10-20T01:16:00.002+08:00

akhir sem semua orang penat kan?
samala
lagi bertambah tambah penat bila tengok result test teruk
takut la
takut sangat
gila takut la
macam mana eh?